Friday, March 28, 2014

Another test behind us

Joshua is doing well after his endoscopy and colonoscopy this morning.  He recovered from anesthesia ready to roll!  He was (unsteadily) roaming the halls of Day Surgery within minutes of waking up.  The doc said most everything looked normal for a short gut kid from the naked eye, but the biopsies and cultures collected today will tell the real story.  Those results should be in next week.  We have another clinic appointment scheduled next Friday afternoon to discuss all of the results and potential steps moving forward. 

The doctor did see a "miniscule superficial erosion" in the distal portion of the duodenal wall consistent with inflammation of the mucosal lining due to an allergic response or bacteria - that's the million dollar question.  He also found an area of lymphonodular hyperplasia in the duodenal bulb which basically means his lymph nodes are overly active in this spot.  This is apparently not uncommon in short gut kids because what little intestines they have are forced to work extra hard and this is a constant source of irritation which stimulates the lymph node activity.  Both areas were biopsied so we will know more from the histology reports next week. 

The real thrill and surprise for me this morning was learning the doctor was able to collect an aspirate of gastric fluid to perform a gut culture.  I have been fighting to get the gut culture protocol reinstated at CHOA for months because this test is helpful in identifying the specific types of bacteria causing overgrowth problems.  This would allow us to tailor Joshua's antibiotic regimen to the bacteria affecting him and not play antibiotic roulette using a standard protocol for all short gut kids.  It would also help us rule on whether bacterial overgrowth or an allergic response is the bigger culprit in terms of the inflammation and malabsorption Joshua suffers from and allow us to pinpoint a proper treatment plan.  I learned through my support group that gut cultures are routine at premier children's hospitals in Boston, Pittsburgh, and many others.  I was floored when our doctor told me this test was not an option at CHOA - the best children's hospital in the southeast!  I eventually figured out it used to be a protocol 8 years ago, but the one employee in the lab that read the complex culture results left and they just dropped the test altogether rather than training a new employee.  Unacceptable!  I hounded our GI doc for months about it and stalled the endoscopy until this additional test was included.  Our doctor went to bat for us cutting through some significant red tape and now the gut culture test will be available to any GI patient that needs it at CHOA.  I am pretty proud I was able to instigate this hospital policy change to benefit Joshua and future GI patients!  I am nervous and anxious to learn the results next week.  The gut culture cannot always be collected if enough fluid is not present, luckily our doctor was able to get a good specimen.  Growing out and reading the culture can also be tricky because there are typically multiple types of bacteria and you have to figure out which specific type is overgrowing by counting colonies.  The test is not perfect, but I know dozens of families that have benefited from it and having more information is always better.

I already know our doctor wants to order a gastric emptying test later this month to see how well Joshua's stomach contents are emptying into his duodenum because of his recent vomiting.  This involves Joshua eating radioactively labeled food (it better include bananas) and having a series of x-rays taken over the next few hours.  Sounds like a fun-filled afternoon for Mom & Josh!

Thank you to everyone for your extra thoughts and prayers this week for our little warrior!  He continues to amaze us every day with his strength, bravery, and sweet spirit!!




Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Joshua's next procedure

Joshua will be traveling to CHOA this week on Thursday for a pre-op visit and lab work and then again on Friday for an endoscopy with biopsies.  I am anxious to get through this latest procedure so we have more information in hand to better evaluate Joshua's condition and determine future treatments and so I can have the part where we have to say goodbye to our baby as he is wheeled off to the OR behind us once again.  We have been putting this scope off for months because we hate to put him under general anesthesia and we still aren't convinced we will obtain valuable enough information to outweigh the risk of the anesthesia.  But Joshua's belly pains at night have only worsened and his body is not able to tolerate as much solid food as one would expect, so at this point the discomfort for Joshua and the need to know what is going on inside him are pushing us forward with the procedure. 

Joshua's last clinic appointment was March 7th.  We were expecting to receive the great news that his weight gain had continued and it was time to start lowering his hourly rate of IV fluids.  This is the first step in slowly weaning down on the fluids over a period of months (or years) until his bowel can tolerate the amount of food necessary to thrive and grow so he is no longer dependent on the IV nutrition supplementation.  Unfortunately, we were very disappointed to learn that while Joshua did gain weight, he did not maintain the same rate of growth as the last appointment so the doctor did not feel comfortable lowering his IV fluids.  We were pretty shocked because Joshua seems to be heavier and taller all the time, he is still maintaining in the 50th percentile for weight.  Having gone through the scare we did last year when we tried to push his system into handling more than it could and the disastrous effects that caused, I do understand that taking a cautious approach is the best course of action.  I firmly believe slow and steady wins this race.

At this same appointment, we were talking with our nutritionist about how picky Joshua has become with not eating certain types of foods like meats and veggies.  His favorite combination is a cut up banana and a rice cake crushed and mixed together.  He will pick through any bites of meat or different colored veggies and put them to the side on his tray.  I have a tough time coming up with new options for him to try because of his dairy and wheat allergies and the other list of no-no foods like nuts, all fruit besides banana, soy, and anything processed or with too much sugar.  That counts out a lot of foods!  I am now that person in the grocery aisle that reads every word of nutrition labels in the search for dairy-free, gluten-free, nut-free, fruit-free, and low sugar items. 

After learning about Joshua's new picky behaviors, the nutritionist suggested that it may be time for him to have a g-tube placed to receive tube feedings directly into his stomach.  I am incredibly resistant to this idea for many reasons.  Joshua has managed to make it this long without a feeding tube which is highly unusual given his condition.  Because he has been allowed to eat orally continuously from a few weeks old (except for periods after surgeries), he has not developed the oral aversions that are so common with short gut kids.  These can be hugely detrimental and hideously difficult to overcome, requiring years of feeding therapy with varying levels of success.  I absolutely do not want to take away any of his opportunities for oral feeding.  A g tube is only good for getting an amount of food that Joshua's bowel can process and absorb into his stomach because he won't take it in orally.  Another major issue I have is that we have proven from trial and error that Joshua's intestines cannot handle an increased amount of food at this time so a g tube is not indicated for his current condition. 

I was determined to prove the nutritionist wrong and get Joshua eating a more varied diet with protein and veggies.  I was successful in increasing the size and variety in Joshua's meals adding chicken, eggs, green beans, and corn.  He loves to eat, but it is very easy for him to take in more than he can handle and he ends up "dumping" the food out in a diaper without ever absorbing it.  This past week he also vomited all over me on Tuesday and Saturday nights during or after his bedtime bottle.  Our GI doc thinks he is so full from the solid food at dinner that the formula an hour or two later has nowhere to go.  He suggested that we may need to do a gastric emptying study after we get the results from the endoscopy to confirm whether Joshua's stomach is emptying at a normal rate. 

So we continue to walk a very thin tightrope attempting to increase Joshua's food and formula intake in order to get him off the IV fluids, but without exceeding his body's capacity to process the increased amount lest we take giant steps backwards with episodes of vomiting, diarrhea, cutting back on feeds, and ultimately weight loss.  To say it's an every day challenge is putting it mildly.  But, we're doing it... however slow and bumpy the road may be.

We cleared a huge hurdle this week when we finally received Joshua's long sought after renewal for the Katie Beckett deeming waiver.  The paperwork battle this year was tougher than last and we were down to our last rejection notice before having to go through the appeal process which I am sure is even more torturous.  Letters from me and our GI doctor turned the tide in our favor.  Our approval notice was met with immense relief and a grim sense of satisfaction for besting the bureaucratic process this time around.  Now I get an eight month reprieve before the battle begins again in November for next year's coverage. 

Please keep Joshua in your thoughts this week as he undergoes yet another invasive procedure.  Let us hope for the doctors to find the information they need in order to develop a targeted treatment plan for Joshua's condition.  Slow and steady win the race - we just need more of the steady!

 



 
 
 
 
 

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Fighting for Joshua




Georgia Medical Care Foundation
TEFRA/Katie Beckett Review Nurse
PO Box 105406
Atlanta, GA 30348

To Whom It May Concern:

I am writing this letter in support of Joshua Folden’s renewal application for the Katie Beckett Deeming Waiver.  Joshua’s application has been denied because the criteria for Nursing Facility Level of Care (LOC) has supposedly not been met. 

Joshua most definitely requires and receives daily skilled nursing and/or rehabilitation care.  It just so happens that I, his mother, am the trained professional providing his care on a daily basis.  If I were not willing, not properly trained, or physically incapable of providing Joshua’s daily medical care due to illness or injury, he would require immediate placement in a nursing facility or multiple visits from a skilled nurse per day.

Following Joshua’s birth in July 2012, I lived in the Children’s Healthcare of Atlanta (CHOA) NICU with Joshua for 18 weeks, working side by side with his team of nurses learning how to provide care for his various conditions.  I learned CHOA protocol for maintaining his Central Venous Line (CVL) including changing the sterile dressing, changing the end cap, performing a Heparin lock, performing an Ethanol lock, and emergency procedures in case of a line breakage.  I learned how to prepare Joshua’s IV fluids and connect/disconnect him from the fluids following CHOA protocol.  I learned how to inject the proper additives, operate and troubleshoot the pumps, and set up and prime the tubing.  I learned how to administer his many medications, prepare his specialty allergen-free diet, and interpret the signs of diarrhea, malabsorption, and dehydration.  I learned how to speak the language of the hospital, navigate the different departments, and push doctors for more information.  And I continue to use these learned skills at home to care for Joshua’s chronic medical condition 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

Joshua’s daily care can be broken down into the following categories:  TPN & Lipid preparation, Connect/Disconnect CVL including Heparin Lock, Sterile Dressing& End Cap Management, Ethanol Lock Administration, Medicine Preparation & Administration, Allergen-free Food Preparation, Diapering & Skin Care, Supply Management & Storage.  Each section will be explored in more detail with notations for tasks that are performed by a skilled nurse in a hospital or nursing facility setting.

*TPN & Lipid Preparation
On a daily basis, all necessary supplies are gathered and the work surface thoroughly cleaned.  Following standard CHOA protocol, including being gloved and masked, I inject three medications (Infuvite, Addamel, & Ranitidine) into Joshua’s TPN bag after thorough cleaning of the injection port, connect four sets of tubing, spike both bags of TPN and lipids, and prime tubing to remove all air bubbles from the line.
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, this task is performed by a skilled nurse.

*Connect/Disconnect CVL
Joshua requires connection and disconnection from his IV fluids on a daily basis.  The pumps are turned off and all lines are clamped.  Following standard CHOA protocol, including being gloved and masked, the CVL end cap is thoroughly cleaned.  For disconnection, 2 mL of saline are flushed through the line, then a Heparin Lock is performed to prevent clotting in the line.  For connection, an empty syringe is used to draw back until blood is returned, then 2 mL of saline are flushed through the line, and the IV line is connected.  The TPN and lipids pumps are turned on, the programs started, and all lines are unclamped.  Extremely special care now has to be taken when handling and supervising Joshua to guard against line breaks which can lead to Central Line-Associated Bloodstream Infections (CLABSI’s) known to be life-limiting, which can lead to sepsis, coma, shock, embolism, endocarditis, losing catheter access for life-sustenance, up to and including death.
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, these tasks are performed by a skilled nurse.

*Sterile Dressing & End Cap Management
Joshua’s CVL must be clean and free of bacteria and protected by a sterile dressing and Biopatch.  The dressing and Biopatch must be changed at least once per week and more often in cases when the integrity of the dressing has been compromised.  Following standard CHOA protocol, including sterile technique, I perform the dressing change in times of need.  Although our home nurse performs this task on a routine basis, I have been required to change the dressing myself when the dressing has come off inadvertently and during inclement weather when the nurse is unable to travel.  In addition to the dressing, the CVL end cap also must be changed on a weekly basis or more often in the case of soiling (this happens frequently since the end cap naturally falls around the top of the diaper area).  Improper cleaning and maintenance of the CVL end cap can lead to potentially life-threatening Central Line-Associated Bloodstream Infections (CLABSI).
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, these tasks are performed by a skilled nurse.

*Ethanol Lock Administration
Twice a week Joshua requires an Ethanol lock in the CVL to help prevent potentially life-threatening Central Line-Associated Bloodstream Infections (CLABSI).  Following standard CHOA protocol, the CVL end cap is thoroughly cleaned, blood return is confirmed, 2 mL of saline are flushed through the line, then 1 mL of 45% Ethanol solution is allowed to dwell in the line for 4 hours.  Following this 4 hour period, the Ethanol must be withdrawn from (not flushed into) the CVL and a Heparin lock performed.
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, these tasks are performed by a skilled nurse.

*Medication Ordering, Preparation, & Administration
Joshua’s medication schedule requires multiple medicines a day on a rotating weekly schedule that must be carefully followed.  Care and planning must go into obtaining the right compounded formulation of his medications with no excess sugars, artificial sweeteners, and dyes due to his GI system’s sensitivities.  Joshua receives medications throughout the day and night which must be specially prepared and administered.  His medication schedule is as follows:

Loperamide, 1 mg, 4x a day:  to combat chronic diarrhea caused by Short Bowel Syndrome; capsule is twisted apart releasing 2 mg of Loperamide powder, this is suspended in 2 mL of water and 1 mL is placed in his bottles of Pediasure Peptide at 9 am, 3 pm, 9 pm, & 3 am.
Simethicone, 0.6 mL, 3x a day: to help with gas and cramping, administered in bottles
Metronidazole, 85 mg, 3x a day on Days 1-7 and 14-21 of each month:  to treat ongoing Small Bowel Bacterial Overgrowth (SBBO) caused by loss of the Ileocecal Valve.  1.6 mL of specially compounded Metronidazole suspension is administered by mouth.  Medication requires cold storage.
Nystatin, 100,000 units/mL, 2.5 mL, 4x a day on Days 8-14 of each month:  to treat yeast and fungus overgrowth often caused by long term antibiotic use.
Lactobacillus GG, 1.5 billion cells, once a day on Days 21-28 of each month:  to reintroduce healthy bacteria to the gut after extensive antibiotic use
Ranitidine, 20.8 mg/0.83 mL syringe, injected into TPN once per day: to treat acid reflux
Infuvite, 5 mL syringe, add contents of 1 mL syringe to 4 mL syringe then inject combination into TPN once per day: vitamins
Addamel N, 1.6 mL syringe, injected into TPN once per day: trace elements
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, these tasks are performed by a skilled nurse.

Allergen-Free Food Preparation
Joshua requires a special hypoallergenic diet due to food allergies and sensitivities.  His current formula regimen includes 7 three ounce bottles per day of Pediasure Peptide 1.0 at12 am, 3 am, 9 am, 12 pm, 3 pm, 6 pm, and 9 pm.  He receives a ratio of 2/3 Unflavored and 1/3 Vanilla flavored Pediasure Peptide to limit excess sugar.  Pediasure Peptide is a specialty formula that must be custom ordered and costs between $6-9 per bottle.  Pediasure Peptide requires cold storage after opening and use within 48 hours.  Joshua also eats limited solid foods.  Special care must be taken to offer only the foods which his nutritionist has approved.  Joshua has been diagnosed with a dairy allergy and wheat sensitivity.  He is also not allowed nuts, soy, eggs, shellfish, most fruits (except bananas), beans, and anything with excess sugar.  Failure to follow these guidelines could result in a serious allergic reaction including bloody stools.  Joshua’s food and formula intake must be closely monitored and immediately adjusted in the event of diarrhea, vomiting, or other symptom of GI distress.  If left untreated, excess diarrhea and vomiting will lead to dehydration and potential acidosis requiring an extended hospital stay.

Diapering & Skin Care
Short Bowel Syndrome results in an excessive number of stools per day, for Joshua this can be as many as 14-16 stools per day in times of illness.  These stools are usually loose or even watery in consistency and can quickly cause serious diaper rash that affect skin patency and increase risk of infection.  Swift diaper changing and a strict skin care regimen, including a specially ordered hospital-strength diaper cream, are adhered to throughout the day and night to protect the integrity of Joshua’s skin.  Loose stools often escape from the diaper and can expose the CVL to bacterial contamination potentially leading to Central Line-Associated Bloodstream Infections (CLABSI’s).  Excessive cleaning of surfaces, clothing, and anything else the CVL comes in contact with is necessary to help prevent potentially life-threatening infection. 

*Supply Management & Storage
Treating Joshua’s condition from home requires a significant amount of equipment and supplies.  I must be ever vigilant in planning, ordering, storing, and maintaining Joshua’s medical equipment.  The TPN & Lipids pumps and chargers must be routinely calibrated and verified.  The pumps must be charged on a daily basis to insure they are ready to use each night.  The TPN, lipids, Zantac, and Infuvite require cold storage, but also must be allowed to reach room temperature before infusion to prevent significant cooling of Joshua’s core body temperature.  I must always have enough gloves, masks, alcohol wipes, saline syringes, heparin syringes, empty syringes, three different types of tubing, needles, and dressing change supplies.  A sharps container must be maintained and hazardous materials properly disposed of.
*In a hospital or nursing facility setting, these tasks are performed by a skilled nurse.

Emergency CVL Procedures
CVL’s are prone to breakage and the formation of small holes at junctures in the line.  Line breaks and holes in the line have serious consequences.  A line break must be immediately clamped to prevent blood loss and minimize exposure to harmful bacteria that cause CLABSI’s.  Failure to clamp off the line can lead to potentially life-threatening excessive blood loss.  Holes in the line form slowly and can be difficult to identify until an infusion is running which leads to fluid and blood loss until the hole is discovered and the line clamped.  Joshua has had two holes form in the line.  One was discovered when our home health nurse flushed the line during a lab draw.  The other hole formed in the middle of the night and I found Joshua lying in a pool of blood and fluids during a routine nightly check.  Joshua has had his CVL’s break three times.  Each time I have had to rip his clothes off and pinch the line off with my fingernails to prevent blood spurting out while I located the regular line clamp or a pair of hemostats.  Every time this happens requires an ER visit, placement of a peripheral IV while the CVL is being repaired, and close monitoring at home for development of a CLABSI in the two weeks after a line break.  Joshua must be supervised at all times by an individual trained in emergency CVL procedures.  A CVL can become compromised at any time of the day or night.  My nightly routine includes checking on Joshua every 1-2 hours at minimum for confirmation the CVL is infusing properly.  I am also always on alert for pump alarms to clear air bubbles from the line in the middle of the night.  Since Joshua may require emergency attention anywhere we go, an emergency kit that includes hemostats, alcohol wipes, an end cap, saline syringes, heparin, gloves, masks, and a dressing change kit is always packed with us. 

After reading about Joshua’s daily care regimen, surely anyone can agree he requires daily skilled nursing care.  How fortunate that he has a mother concerned and capable enough to provide the around the clock care and supervision Joshua requires.  I have been at the bedside every day and night he has spent in the hospital, have attended every GI clinic, every Developmental Progress clinic, every pediatrician’s appointment, every nurse’s visit, every Physical Therapy, Occupational Therapy, Speech Therapy and Music Therapy session.  There is no one better equipped to provide the continuity of care Joshua’s chronic GI condition and developmental delays necessitate. 

Please allow me the opportunity to continue caring for my son in the way he deserves by renewing his application for the Katie Beckett Deeming Waiver as soon as possible. 

Sincerely,
Kristi L. Folden
Mother, Legal Guardian, & Skilled Nurse to Joshua Folden


Monday, January 6, 2014

Setbacks & milestones

This post is long overdue, I know, about five months overdue.  Joshua's situation has been changing so frequently and we have experienced so many challenges and setbacks that I have just not been able to focus on processing my feelings and putting fingers to keyboard.  Much of what I have to say about the last half of 2013 is not very positive and that makes it more difficult to express to our loved ones who, with us, so badly want Joshua's situation to improve and progress.

Since August Joshua has endured:

  • four terrible ER visits that all ended in hospital admissions
  • a life threatening central line and systemic blood infection
  • six weeks of debilitating diarrhea
  • two invasive surgeries
  • one endoscopy with multiple biopsies
  • a bloody diarrhea event caused by food allergies
  • multiple difficult IV sticks
  • one horrendous catheterization
  • three weeks of acidosis
  • one CVL break
  • and other various injustices including a stretch of many weeks he was hooked up to IV fluids for 16-24 hours a day
During that same time Joshua has also:
  • learned how to crawl as fast as lightning
  • learned how to pull up, cruise, and is now taking 10+ steps on his own     
  • had his first hair cut
  • (kind of) enjoyed his first real baths
  • took his first swims in the lake
  • cut his first tooth and now has a whole mouthful
  • started devouring finger foods
  • discovered playgrounds
  • began destroying everything in the house within reach
  • went on his first hike in the mountains
  • enjoyed his extended family at Christmas for the first time
  • and brought a million moments of joy and laughter to his adoring Mom & Dad
I am always asked "How is Joshua?".  Such a simple question, but with not so simple of an answer.  It is incredibly difficult for me to express how Joshua is doing on any given day.  On many levels he is doing fantastic and is one of the happiest, sweetest children I know.  On other levels he is struggling mightily and so am I.  I also know most people don't really want to know the nitty gritty about our day to day trials, they just want to hear Joshua is doing better and isn't in the hospital so they can go about their day without having to spend any more time thinking about the Foldens' sick kid.  Who really wants to think about an ill child?  It's a downer.  So I've tried to come up with a pat answer that sort of expresses how difficult things are, but with a positive twist to make people feel better - needless to say, I'm still working on it.
 
As usual, I have many more questions than answers about how the recent setbacks will affect Joshua's long term progress.  I simply don't have the information most people want to know.

How much longer will he be on IV fluids?  Will he have long term effects as an adult?  Will he outgrow his food allergies?

These are questions our doctor can't answer for me so I cannot begin to answer them for others.
 
What has been determined through some frightening trial and error in August/September is that Joshua's body is nowhere near ready to digest and absorb the amount of food he requires to thrive.  The only way to wean him off the IV fluids is for his body to absorb more formula and food so we can lower the amount of calories he gets overnight from his fluids.  After working up to 4 oz bottles before the line infection in August, we have been stuck between 1.5 and 2.5 oz bottles ever since.  Any time we increase the amount, he gets diarrhea and we have to cut back again.  It is a maddening process that is heavily complicated by bacterial overgrowth and inflammation caused by food allergies.  We never know if it is the increased feeds or one of these other factors or a combination that is contributing to the diarrhea.  Either way, the only thing to do is cut back on feeds. Joshua absolutely loves to eat, which is rather unique amongst his short bowel syndrome colleagues, so it is especially disheartening to take away something he loves to do.  This also makes him rather irritable, as I'm sure you can imagine (no one would want to be near me out of fear for their lives if I wasn't allowed to eat). 
 
Several factors have led Joshua's GI team to believe he is suffering from inflammation caused by a so far unidentified source.  Starting with an endoscopy in September that showed increased eosinophilic activity and mild blunting of the intestinal villi, a bloody diarrhea incident in October attributed to a wheat intolerance after he had a few Cheerios, and most recently a markedly increased fecal calprotectin level which is a marker of inflammation.  There are two likely culprits of the inflammatory response - bacterial overgrowth and/or a sustained allergic reaction.  Joshua was diagnosed with bacterial overgrowth in the spring (very common for people missing their ileocecal valves) after responding well to a maintenance antibiotic regimen.  We have been tweaking his regimen ever since in an unending effort to stay ahead of the overgrowth and antibiotic resistance.  It is a difficult balance to maintain with less than perfect diagnostic tests to assist with treatment choices.  Joshua has also shown tendencies for food allergies having already been diagnosed with a dairy allergy via a colonoscopy and now a wheat intolerance.  There are likely other food items that cause him problems that we are not aware of yet.  He thankfully did have negative blood test results for the major anaphylactic type allergies for nuts, shellfish, citrus, and soy.   
 
The extremely frustrating part of this has been trying to determine what is causing the inflammation.  I have slowly learned that the hospital we go to is not capable of performing (or not willing to in one case) some of the current diagnostic tests available for unambiguous diagnosis of bacterial overgrowth including breath tests and gut cultures collected during an endoscopy.  Gut cultures are able to tell you what strain of bacteria is overgrowing in the small bowel so you are able to wisely choose the best antibiotic to use.  After months of inquiring, I finally found out the real story at our hospital is that they used to have a protocol for gut cultures years ago, but it's a difficult culture reading procedure, and no one in the laboratory knows how to do it currently.  What?!?  This is the reason my son is going through months of discomfort and antibiotic trial and error?  And the reason why we weren't able to positively identify the source of inflammation during the last endoscopy and now he needs another invasive procedure requiring anesthesia?  Unacceptable.
 
I was extremely grateful to have found a wonderfully supportive and extremely knowledgeable group on Facebook for family members of short gut kids around a year ago.  Through this group, I now understand that our hospital is not even on the list of the best pediatric GI hospitals in the country.  Although it is well known for heart transplants and cancer treatment, GI conditions are not their specialty, especially not short gut.  I now know that Joshua would be receiving top notch treatment if I were to bring him to hospitals in Pittsburgh, Boston, Cincinnati, or Minneapolis. 
 
We are now considering the benefits of traveling with Joshua (and all that entails) to see the best short gut doctors in the country since I am unimpressed with our current level of progress and the unknown path ahead.  I believe we may have reached our current teams maximum capabilities and Joshua needs and deserves more.  This will be an involved process that would require coordination with our current team.  Because routine care for Joshua's line, etc. would still take place at our home hospital, care must be taken not to burn bridges with our current team.  This can be challenging, especially during admissions when my anxiety is at its highest and I am constantly reminding myself not to bite peoples heads off.  Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.  My apologies to the staff that have suffered through my heated comments - it all comes from a place of desperation for my son.  
 
The strange thing is now the hospital stays, doctors visits, and everything else that goes along with treating Joshua's condition seem like my "real life" and the weeks that I actually keep a normal schedule and go to work two days a week seem like my "other world".  I spend such little time in my other world that it is hard to know what to do when I am able to be there.  I had the amazing fortune of meeting up with three other local moms recently that I found through my Facebook support group.  They all have short gut kids that are around 4 years old.  It gives me hope to see that even though their children's condition still occupies a large portion of their life, there are fewer hospital admissions and more time in between doctors visits the older the kids get.  Knowing I have this unbelievable group of women behind me brings me great comfort, they understand firsthand everything we are going through and that is invaluable to me. 
 
I will do my best not to let as much time pass between posts.  Now that you made it through this long diatribe, enjoy a few cute photos!  B&W's courtesy of Anne Manning.
 




 
 
 
 

Sunday, August 4, 2013

The big 1st birthday and the best news ever!!

Joshua had a very big week, indeed!  Not only did he turn one, we also received the best news ever at his GI appointment on Friday.  Joshua thoroughly impressed the doctors with his weight gain and they decided to come down on his rate of fluids and talked about him coming off the fluids entirely at his next appointment on September 20th!!  He could have the broviac line removed about a month later so he may be line-free by Halloween!!!  I was completely stunned by this news, my mouth hit the floor several times during the conversation with the docs.  I was prepared and expecting another possible 6+ months of the IV fluids so imagining we could be done NEXT MONTH is shocking.  I am finding it all hard to process and I also don't want to get my hopes up too much because things can change so quickly with Joshua's condition.  We will keep hoping and dreaming that September 20th is the day Joshua no longer needs an IV. 

Yesterday we celebrated Joshua turning one with a family birthday party.  The birthday boy took a two hour nap beforehand and was a happy, partying little guy for almost 7 hours straight!  He had a lot of fun being the center of attention and receiving so many new, fun toys to play with.  Joshua loves to figure out new things.  It was very special to have all four of Joshua's great grandmothers on hand to celebrate!  The picture shoot with those four was quite a hoot :)

I want to say a special thank you to everyone who sent Joshua well wishes, cards, and gifts on his birthday.  It is incredibly comforting to know what a big cheering section our amazing little guy has behind him!  We are so very excited to share our wonderful news with all of Joshua's supporters.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Smashing his cake with chicken and gravy frosting since he can't have icing.  Joshua didn't care!
 
The four great grandmothers!
 
 
Love this face when he first figures out he can move around on this new toy!
 
 
 


 
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Joshua's Birthday week!!

I can hardly believe it, Joshua is turning 1 on Wednesday!  And what a year it has been.  The first part was filled with intense fear and uncertainty, but ultimately Joshua's year has been defined by joy, hope, and triumph over adversity.  We could not be any prouder of him!

Celebrating an early birthday with cousins last month at the lake.


Once again it has been a month since I last posted so let me catch everyone up on what has been happening with the Little Man.

We had an unfortunate ER visit and 30 hour hospital stay a few weeks ago due to a pinprick hole in Joshua's central line.  As always, it was a stressful, frustrating visit to the ER.  We sat there for almost 7 hours before being admitted to our room on the 4th floor.  Joshua was stuck 3 times for a temporary IV while his CVL was repaired, he had a vein blown in his hand, and his poor foot looked like a pincushion.  We finally had enough and refused the phlebotomy team coming down to try again for the IV.  It took me having multiple conversations with different doctors including the head ER doc, the attending physician, and our GI team over the phone and in person, but we finally agreed to a plan to check Joshua's blood sugar with a heel stick every 3-4 hours to monitor his blood glucose to make sure it didn't drop below 60.  I was satisfied with this plan because Joshua is not really bothered by the heel sticks since he was used to them from the NICU, however the IV process is very traumatic for him (mainly because he has to be restrained which he hates).  I wanted to do anything possible to spare him the discomfort of additional needle sticks. 

We finally got Joshua settled in our room for the night after an exhausting day where the little guy was up for 8 hours, not allowed to eat (for absolutely no good reason I might add), and held down multiple times against his will to be stuck by needles.  It was not a good day for any of us.  I realized around 10 pm that I hadn't eaten, drank, or gone to the bathroom in over 9 hours.  It's very strange, your body goes into a sort of hibernation where all of a sudden the usual bodily needs no longer interfere with your extreme concentration on what is happening with your child.  I have had this experience many times before in times of crisis, but never realize it while it is happening.  Only later once Joshua is peaceful do I reflect back on the day and realize my body should be dehydrated and famished.  He did not sleep well in the prison-like hospital crib so Joshua ended up curled next to me on the single bed while poor David had to sleep on the cold, hard hospital floor in a sleeping bag.  Every other room we have stayed in has had two sleep beds, but this floor apparently only supplies one.  Go figure.  Our nurse tried to tell me at one point in the middle of the night that it was against the rules for Joshua to be sleeping with me.  I must have given her some kind of warning look (I'm told I don't have a poker face) because she backed off pretty quickly.  This was the first and only night in my baby's entire life that he has not been hooked up to an IV.  Joshua and I were snuggling with abandon and loving every minute of it.  It was the most peaceful night we have ever spent in the hospital even though Joshua had to be woken up every 3 hours to have his heel pricked.  His line was repaired without incident and we were discharged the next afternoon.

Joshua is now on his IV only 12 hours a day instead of the long-standing 16 hour a day routine we have had since January.  This extra 4 hours of freedom is fantastic since the little guy has started moving around pretty actively in recent times.  Now he can be free from the bed in the morning to roll around and army crawl to his heart's desire.  Joshua hasn't quite gotten the hang of crawling forward, yet, although he can move backwards quite effectively.  He also pivots around in circles and almost looks like he's break dancing - it's pretty hysterical.  This guy cannot WAIT to run around, I am starting to think he will skip crawling altogether and go right to walking.  He really enjoys standing up while hanging onto something for support.  Joshua is still seeing physical therapy twice a month and it is helping, but I think he is progressing more on his own from pure desire to move than anything. 



Besides the big first birthday, Joshua also has his one year pediatrician visit on Thursday and his next GI clinic on Friday along with his family party on Saturday.  He has no idea how busy his week is going to be!  Personally, I am looking forward to Sunday when we hunker down together at home to recuperate.


On the social side of things, Joshua has been on multiple trips to the lake to both Hartwell and Oconee.  He has also stayed with friends in Atlanta where he played with his 3 year old friend and laughed hysterically at a black Lab puppy.  It may be getting close to time for the Folden family to get a dog again.  Joshua is happiest when he is out and about discovering new adventures. 




 

 

Friday, June 21, 2013

A great report from CHOA! (and a visit to the zoo)

We received wonderful news at Joshua's visit to CHOA today!  The barium enema showed no obstructions, strictures, or narrowings - hallelujah!!  If the contrast study had shown any of these things, another invasive surgery would have been necessary which would be absolutely horrid.  The GI doc also cleared Joshua to eat veggies and he will be able to get off his IV fluids for an additional 4-6 hours starting next week!!  This is amazing for our daily routine - we will no longer have to keep Joshua occupied in bed or on the floor constantly keeping him untangled from his IV lines until noon.  It's a big change for us to receive all good news at one of these visits.  We are so very excited about his super progress! 

Pulling up grass while killing time in the CHOA garden.

And the highlight of our day at CHOA was meeting three of our favorite nurses for a long overdue visit!  We miss seeing these special ladies every day :)

 

Last week we took Joshua to the little Bear Hollow Zoo in Athens.  Although we have lived here for 14 years, we have never been to this free local landmark.  Joshua had a great time and we strolled around Memorial Park afterwards to extend our outside time. 

Happy to be out and about!

Watching the turkeys with Daddy

Prime candidate for the Ugliest Duckling. 
This guy had a hideous limp and everything, he was one jacked up duck.
Look at my split, Mom!
And now I'm ready for a nap.